Simple, Starving to be Safe

25. ABC. Political junkie. Retired science nerd. Traveler. I live for good food, my friends, and boba milk tea. Figuring out myself and what I really want from life, while at the same time trying to find that someone with "a smile that could light up this whole town"

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July 28, 2014 9:42 am

askerquestioner

Anonymous: Hey man! Big fan of your blog here haha Just really curious... I noticed in the screenshot of your Jack'd that you had 122 messages in your inbox. Why not just delete them or block the user?

I do that for a couple reasons. The main reason is that I’m lazy. There’s also a part of me that enjoys seeing how many messages I can accumulate. =P 

9:39 am

askerquestioner

Anonymous: hi! Just stopping by to wish you well! it looks like we have a few common connections... and that you may have gone to UCSD? plus i find you super cute. :D enjoy some awesome night market food for me.

Sorry for the late response! Thanks anon!

July 27, 2014 7:50 am
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7:47 am July 21, 2014 4:29 pm
Woke up at 7am so I could use the gym before check out at the nicest hotel ever. Marina Bay Sands in Singapore bitches!

Woke up at 7am so I could use the gym before check out at the nicest hotel ever. Marina Bay Sands in Singapore bitches!

July 20, 2014 6:44 pm
Can someone explain to me why the Singapore boys all say “hi” as their initial message? They speak English here. Why don’t they act like it online?!

Can someone explain to me why the Singapore boys all say “hi” as their initial message? They speak English here. Why don’t they act like it online?!

July 16, 2014 9:49 pm
"Night is purer than day; it is better for thinking, loving and dreaming. At night everything is more intense, more true. The echo of words that have been spoken during the day takes on a new and deeper meaning."

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July 15, 2014 8:43 am
The unusually cool summer air felt relaxing as we aimlessly strolled through a practically empty square. He found a ledge and stood facing the small lights in the distance. Maybe he was processing everything I had just spoken—all the things I had kept pent up for the past 3 months. I’ll never know. 
"You know in the beginning I really tried."
"Yeah, I know you did. You showed me that much. I was happy during that time."  

The unusually cool summer air felt relaxing as we aimlessly strolled through a practically empty square. He found a ledge and stood facing the small lights in the distance. Maybe he was processing everything I had just spoken—all the things I had kept pent up for the past 3 months. I’ll never know. 

"You know in the beginning I really tried."

"Yeah, I know you did. You showed me that much. I was happy during that time."  

July 14, 2014 9:34 am

Unraveling (Part 1)

My Saturday night plans seemed they were going to be better than my usual dull weekend activities. I had been talking for the past few days to an Aussie boy visiting Taipei, and he wanted to check out the gay scene. We seemed to click, so I agreed to take him out. 

Little did I know that this night and the days to follow would unravel so quickly.

I chose Abrazo as our starting point. It’s one of the popular bars for the yuppie crowd. I waited for him to arrive outside, and we walked in together. After ordering drinks and having some small talk, we found a slightly less crowded pocket in the sea of gaysians. We stood next to the long table in the center of the bar.

I turn my head around towards the opposite side of the table, and there he was straight in front of me. I knew he was probably in Taipei already, but I was not expecting to see him here, to see him like this. I approached the side of the table, looked at him, and waited for him to notice me. As soon as our eyes met, I smirked and said, “Hey there stranger.”

He immediately smiled as made his way over to greet me. We hugged and indulged with small talk. He said he arrived less than a week ago, and that this was his first time out. He came with a local he met from Jack’d along with some of the guy’s friends. I then introduced him to my app boy. We continued to chat until he excused himself to use the bathroom. 

I didn’t think I would feel this awkward about seeing him again. His mere presence was enough to make me feel uncomfortable. I thought I was completely over him. After the way we ended things, I told myself he is someone that will hurt me. My uneasy reaction was a not so gentle reminded my heart and mind still have some issues to resolve. 

The night continued. I felt it was somewhat necessary to give my Aussie friend the abridged version of my history with him. Another drink in and a few stories later, we both felt that it was time to leave to our next venue. I walked over to him and said that I was leaving. As we spoke he inched closer to me while both his hands began to play with the pockets of my shorts. I knew what he was trying to do. I politely peeled his hand off and made my way out. However, I left speaking a few too many drunken words and brought up topics I really shouldn’t have.

As my friend and I got into the cab, my phone started to buzz with messages from him about our last exchange. He wasn’t all that happy with what I had said. Briefly pulling my senses together, I apologized for bringing up the subject and offered to talk to him about it later. I’m fortunate I can be a functional drunk when the situation calls for it.

I enjoyed the rest of my evening to the fullest and most debaucherous extent. I will simply say that I ended the night with more than one achievement unlocked.

July 9, 2014 9:28 am

Electric Glow

On Monday, I finally had a chance to meet up with my closest friend in Taipei. She had been busy with work and then went off to HK for the weekend. This was the first time I had seen her since going on vacation to the US.

I updated her on everything. I told her all about the wonders of the Electric Daisy Carnival. She had only been there once, when it was still in LA. I showed her the pictures and video I had taken. I regaled her with the stories from an unforgettable weekend, including my moments with him.

I summed up my feeling from my trip home and how those emotions had calmed. I told her that I decided to let things be for now. I knew clinging on to something that may not be there was unhealthy. If people are truly meant to be together, the universe will always find a way to align their paths. Plus, I can’t do much from over 6,000 miles away. Practicality has won this battle in my ongoing internal struggle between the quixotic and the pragmatic. 

At the end of our conversation, I only remember her looking at me and smiling. “You know have this glow about you when you talk about him”.

"I know. I can feel it, " I replied casually. And in a voice of acceptance I added, "Even now he can still put that stupid dorky smile on my face" .